What a Way to Go

So in my last post, I briefly mentioned how I wanted to die. For those who missed it, here's the overview:

If I could have my way, I would want to die by sacrificing my life for someone else. Taking a bullet, pushing someone out of the way of a car/train/whatever, taking someone's place on a death march, whatever it may be. The goal would be to spare their life.

Not only have I thought this through rather deeply, but I've also decided that I would do this for anyone. At least, I would try to. I can't boast to any extreme what my actions may or may not be, seeing as I've never been in a situation similar to this, but I like to think that I would offer my life for anyone - even a stranger. That's my hope anyway.

I suppose this is bizarre.

I've never thought it was so odd to actually want to offer your life for someone else. I mean, seriously, if I could die on my own terms, I'd in all honesty want to die for someone I didn't even like. If that makes me sound crazy, then I guess I'm crazy. *Disclaimer, I actually think about this stuff. Like, on a regular basis.*

I think about my favorite characters, whether in movies or TV shows or books, and most of them share a similar trait: selflessness. Once again, I'm not trying to say that I think I'm selfless. In fact, I'm brutally aware of when I'm being the very opposite of that. But nonetheless, here's a few examples: Daniel Jackson from Stargate SG-1 (sacrificed himself for the lives of a bunch of people that didn't even like him very much), Gandalf (willingly let himself become fully separated and had no intention of returning to the Fellowship to spare their lives and fight the Balrog), Aslan (offers his life for Edmund - a traitor), and Captain America (most notably seen in the movie when he throws himself onto what he thinks is a live grenade in order to shelter everyone around him from the expected blast - without even blinking!).

Obviously, I've just shown the nerd in me.

Regardless of that fact, I still really admire this trait in each of these characters. I try to emulate selflessness and sacrifice in everything I do. Not because I want people to sit back and say, "Oh wow, she's so selfless." That's all fine and good, but I don't care what you think about me. I'm more concerned with where that thought goes. Preferably? I want your next thought to be, "I wonder why that is," or better yet, "I should ask her why she does that."

All of this to say, I want to die by saving someone. Maybe I'll donate my whole body to whomever needs it. 'Cause I sure won't be needing my body after I'm dead.

This was a strange post.

Adventure well everyone! It went from 50 degrees to 85 in the span of like, three days here in PA. My arms are jelly from so much archery.

Currently Writing: Zero Point One
Currently Listening to: "Language" by Porter Robinson